Friday, April 20, 2007
@ 7:55 PM
I seriously don't know what you want.I couldn't stand it anymore, I thanked you for doing this to me.
I couldn't take it anymore.
I've learned my lesson, never trust people, never. Especially the one closest to you.
You asked me for his number, I gave you. I don't know what will you do with it.
I seriously don't know. You wanted his number cause you wanted to add his birthday or something.
I gave you cause I trusted you.
I don't know whether have you been messaging him, I don't know.
You're just closed, very very close.
You will always start talking about him whenever I see you.
I've got no choice but to walk away. And yes, you did it this morning.
I walked away. I'm really sorry, I don't know what to do.
I used to tell you everything, but now, never will I gonna tell you anything.
It isn't the first time.
I've been observing. Yeah, you all are damn close.
I just don't know what you and him wants.
You may be messaging him, I don't know, neither do I wants to know.
You may be meeting him every night. Since I'm not in boarding.
You may be, I don't know.
You did it again just now during training.
Sorry, I walked away and ignored you.
I don't wanna hate you, neither do I wanna hate him.
I don't wanna hate the both of you.
But I just seriously don't know, alright.
I'm confused, yes I am.
Yes, you're trying to forget the other him, right now.
Or probably, he's already forgotten.
So what do you mean?
I'm just afraid, I'm really very scared.
I'm kind of avoiding you.
Did you realize that? I hope you do.
You talked to my on MSN just now.
You asked me why was I feeling so gloomy. I wanted to tell you the reason, but something just stopped me from doing that.
Sigh, someone please either kill me now or tell me what to do.
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Okay, people.
Ignored the post at the top.
I got no one to go to, so I just write how am I feeling right now.
Actually I have a lot people to go to, but I just don't know who.
I really don't know who to trust right now.
Sigh.
Morning training was slack.
Starts at 6.30am.
Had English, Maths and Science.
English lesson, free period.
Replied letters. Yeah. Sigh.
I didn't talk a lot in class today. I really don't know.
Had maths. Had Science.
Shafiqah said I'd usually be very high and noisy during Science class.
She asked me what happened. Well, I don't know the reason.
All I knew was, this week during class, I've been very quiet.
Wednesday especially, sigh.
Had module 3 maths result.
Failed.
Wait, failed very badly.
Sigh, I'm very sure that I'll fail geog too.
Took 3pictures with baby today. Shall post it up soon.
100, 50 breast and 200 free tomorrow.
Oh, there's no PEP today.
Went library and then Rec Room.
This week is finally over.
One more week to go and we all are free.
Sigh, I don't feel like blogging anymore. I'm tired.
Shall blog tomorrow if I have the time.
Don't worry, GOH WEI NING the post on the top isn't for you.
And, you'll always be the one that I trust the most.
Good luck for tomorrow's jump.
I believe you can do it, I <3 you.
♥ Your perfect love drives away all my fears.